Quick Prayer

In case you can't tell from my other journal, things aren't all well . . . I've reached the point that I feel like I've lost one of my best friends, and there's no way for me to get back what I had with him back in January. I don't know what to do, and I am trying to hard to not hurt over the situation, and I'm trying so hard not to be mad. I know everything is for the best, and I'm loving being single - that's not the issue at all. I'm just miserable because I don't know what to do without my friend. Because that's truly all I want, and I don't know how to have it. And since I'm being so vague but not, I'm gonna just put a quick prayer on here tonight and then go and wait for God to speak to my heart.

Lord God - calm my heart and soul. Remove the pain from it. Help me to understand that everything works together in your will for the best. Help me to see that the pain that I am feeling is because of my own choosing and not because of the actions of another. Help me to understand both sides of the situation and help me to not be angry. Lord God, heal the pain that I am feeling. Show me where you want me and what you want me to be doing. Remind me daily why this single walk is for the best. Help me to remember that this was your will, and remind me continually that I have nothing to be ashamed of. Help me to continue to love others. Help me to remember all the good that is in Clarion instead of letting it be clouded over with my hurt. Help me to make sense of it all. Remind me that I am not responsible for the actions or lact of actions of another, but that I am responsible for how I act towards them. Help me to act in love and not in anger. Help me to remember the good instead of looking at the current situation.
In your awesome name,
Amen.