Final thought of the night

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As I read back over my entry from the 24th I realize something - in the entry I talked about how I want back what I had at the beginning of the year - and right now, that's what I'm getting.

At the beginning of the year my life was about God and about relationships. Not only with Pat but with all my friends. And I want that back. I want back that newness of life that I felt then when I believed and knew that anything was possible. I want back the excitement of getting into grad school and the joy of sharing my life with other people.

And I'm just now realizing that I can have all of that again. I think the reason that I feel so good about life is that I now know without a doubt that my friends are my friends because of me and not because I was dating Pat - and I know I'll keep in touch with them for me and not because of Pat - and that's a liberating feeling.

And since I think this entry is only making sense to me . . . I'm gonna stop typing now!

Comments

i love ya!

[miss-moose.livejournal.com]

Rachel,

Hey hun...it made sense to me! And just so you know, I was your friend despite the fact that you were dating Pat! LOL J/K! I love you for who you are and the wonderful friendship you have brought into my life! *muwah!*

love ya bunches,
the moose

[sassenach-j.livejournal.com]

men come and men go, but chicas are forever!