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Praises from the Weekend
Oct. 4th, 2004 12:17 amI love my Clarion girls - you girls truly are my angels.
ALF weekend was awesome, and I learned and experienced so much that I can't fit it all into one entry.
First - Pat.
I panicked before coming up for the weekend because I didn't know how I would feel seeing him again. I've been on this "I don't think I'm over him kick" since the break-up. Well - I saw him about a half an hour after getting to Claion and when I saw him, I realized that I didn't have any of those feelings for him anymore. I didn't have to pretend that I didn't still have feelings for him of a romantic nature, because when I looked at him - I realized that I didn't. Overall I didn't see him much during the weekend but he did come to dinner with us Saturday night - sort of akward - but survivable, and sort of fun!
Second - Church
Oh my do I miss First Baptist.
I loved the sermon today and it was exactly what I needed to hear at the end of this weekend. Some of it almost made me cry - but I needed to hear it. It made me realize a lot about why I've dating in the past. I like intimacy - and no, I don't mean sex or anything like that - I mean I like holding hands, and leaning on someone, and just knowing that they are there for me. And I date so that I can have that feeling . . . and beinging single - that's what I miss. And I don't know how this needs to change, but somehow it does. I need to stop relying on guys for intimacy and instead rely on God.
Third - Friends
My friends are awesome!! I miss them so much when I'm not around them. But I realized this weekend that I'm the one with the DSL line, and the cellphone with a million minutes. I need to keep in touch with them and call and email and all that. I need to stop using my livejournal as the only way for them to know what's goin on with me. Crystal - you made a good point - my livejournal is the only way to know what's up with me. I'm going to try and make that change.
And visiting . . . I'm going to have to do that more often. Or have you gals visit me . . . something!
Fourth - Sleep
I can't believe all that I did this weekend and all the sleep I managed to get at the same time! Those powernaps during the movies really helped! Thank you to everyone that didn't try and wake me up! I came up this weekend totally wiped out and I didn't know how I was goint to manage to accomplish anything with so little sleep. In the end - it wasn't a problem.
Fifth (and finally) - God
Is awesome!!! Being back in Clarion and being around my friends reminded me how blessed I truly am. It reminded me of how big God is - and how I can do all things through Him. Between daily prayer, the hymn sing, worship at craft day, hanging at PK's and church - the weekend was filled with God and His glorious creations. It was great to be back in a place where God is number one. It's a good reminder that I often place things before Him in my daily life, and I need to stop that. I need to focus on Him and His love and trust that He can get me through anything.
Ok . . . now I'm gonna go do some homework . . . honest!
ALF weekend was awesome, and I learned and experienced so much that I can't fit it all into one entry.
First - Pat.
I panicked before coming up for the weekend because I didn't know how I would feel seeing him again. I've been on this "I don't think I'm over him kick" since the break-up. Well - I saw him about a half an hour after getting to Claion and when I saw him, I realized that I didn't have any of those feelings for him anymore. I didn't have to pretend that I didn't still have feelings for him of a romantic nature, because when I looked at him - I realized that I didn't. Overall I didn't see him much during the weekend but he did come to dinner with us Saturday night - sort of akward - but survivable, and sort of fun!
Second - Church
Oh my do I miss First Baptist.
I loved the sermon today and it was exactly what I needed to hear at the end of this weekend. Some of it almost made me cry - but I needed to hear it. It made me realize a lot about why I've dating in the past. I like intimacy - and no, I don't mean sex or anything like that - I mean I like holding hands, and leaning on someone, and just knowing that they are there for me. And I date so that I can have that feeling . . . and beinging single - that's what I miss. And I don't know how this needs to change, but somehow it does. I need to stop relying on guys for intimacy and instead rely on God.
Third - Friends
My friends are awesome!! I miss them so much when I'm not around them. But I realized this weekend that I'm the one with the DSL line, and the cellphone with a million minutes. I need to keep in touch with them and call and email and all that. I need to stop using my livejournal as the only way for them to know what's goin on with me. Crystal - you made a good point - my livejournal is the only way to know what's up with me. I'm going to try and make that change.
And visiting . . . I'm going to have to do that more often. Or have you gals visit me . . . something!
Fourth - Sleep
I can't believe all that I did this weekend and all the sleep I managed to get at the same time! Those powernaps during the movies really helped! Thank you to everyone that didn't try and wake me up! I came up this weekend totally wiped out and I didn't know how I was goint to manage to accomplish anything with so little sleep. In the end - it wasn't a problem.
Fifth (and finally) - God
Is awesome!!! Being back in Clarion and being around my friends reminded me how blessed I truly am. It reminded me of how big God is - and how I can do all things through Him. Between daily prayer, the hymn sing, worship at craft day, hanging at PK's and church - the weekend was filled with God and His glorious creations. It was great to be back in a place where God is number one. It's a good reminder that I often place things before Him in my daily life, and I need to stop that. I need to focus on Him and His love and trust that He can get me through anything.
Ok . . . now I'm gonna go do some homework . . . honest!
